Title: seeker of a better way

Gender: Male

Age: 32

Sun Sign: Virgo

Location: Bend, OR

Last year I had a life changing exerience. Not altogether unique, but it changed my life… so…

I got divorced. She met some younger whatever. I was crushed. I didn't know what to do with myself. I was scared for my 4 y/o daughter. Really, I don't want to sound overly dramatic, but at the time, it was traumatizing… And then my arms started falling asleep when I was sleeping. So I went to a real doctor. He explained that the nerves around my elbows were mixed up and he would slice them open & move things around so that wouldn't happen anymore. So I thanked him & left. Then I got a second opinion. I thumbed through the phone book. Randomly picked a naturopath & made an appointment. He said the problem was my pillow. He gave me a new one. It cost $30. It fixed the problem. No slicing.  When I went back to him a week later for the followup, I was dealing with the drama of the day. He asked me how things were going. I spilled my guts. He told me that he can help. So for the next 6 months I went to see him once a week. And he changed my life. Seriously. He changed my life. He's a Buddhist. Spent a lot of time in Berkley & S.F. back in the day. I would tell him something that had happened and how I dealt with it. Then he would help change my perspective & look at the situation in a completely different way. And now I look at my whole life differently. I look at the whole world differently. It's too bad that it took something like that to open my eyes. Get me out of the coma. Re-awaken me.  Insert any other appropriate saying here… So now. Life is grand. I stop and look at the moon. My life has passion. Beauty. Peace. I dance now. Really, I do. I never danced before. I was too uptight. I was too a lot of things. But that is behind me. I will not forget though. I appreicate things more when I think about how things used to be. I knew things were bad. But what about my girl? This isn't right for her. Shouldn't she live with both of us under the same roof? Isn't that what was best for her? AND I didn't want to be alone. I thought it was better to be with someone & not be truly happy then to be alone. But I thought being alone meant not being happy. I know. I know. That is silly. I'm not saying that I want to stay alone. But I'm ok with it. I have a lot of love in my life. My daughter rocks the house. I have her 1/2 the time, which isn't enough, but we make the most of it. But…  I'd much rather share my experiences in this beautiful world with someone. A partner. A friend. At the moment, I'm not sure if I'll ever get married again. I'm not saying never. But at the end of the day, it's a piece of paper. It doesn't mean that you'll communicate better, or be a better partner, or empty the dish washer just because it needs to be emptied. It says that the government acknowledges your relationship. Yipee…

Now don't get me wrong. I realize that I didn't have cancer. Or that I didn't have a near death experience. I know that. But my guru(that's what I like to call him) put me on the path. And I'm grateful to him. So that's my story. Unedited. Quite unedited…

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